Over the last 10 years, I have had 3 xanga accounts. Yes... 3. One as a themeless journal (this one), one as a recipe blog (Jinni), and one as a fiction (a sort of story, in the form of a blog [PaopPu]). Now that i can only migrate one of the three to the wordpress site, I have to choose. And, oh, do i hate having to make choices. 

Of course my knee jerk reaction is to bring this one over-- but even as I filled out the form that Jon sent me, I couldn't help but hesititate. I feel like my Jinni account is so much more professionally written, and as it has a theme, so much more fun to follow-- while at the same time, I did put a lot of creative effort into PaoPu. But even as I finished typing in the 'pants' of DenimPants-- even after I hit 'Submit', I couldn't help but wonder... maybe I should start all over.

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On the other news of the day.... well, there is no other news of the day.

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..... what a weirdo....

Sometimes, when I go out with my friends, I like to pretend that everyone I'm with is jealous of my relationship with Greed.

No. Really. I am so happy that I just assume everyone can see that we are swimming in sunshine and prancing on rainbows with love for each other. Cue the quote,

"You're just in your fucking honeymoon phase."

I was wondering about this actually, is it true? I highly doubt that I am still (if I ever was) in the honeymoon phase of my relationship. But I wouldn't know since I have never been told what specifically classifies your feelings as 'honeymoon' as opposed to 'normal'. Everyone seems to think that being in a long and permanent relationship means that you will eventually run out of things to share, loose the sparks that that aspire you, become hopelessly boring in bed, and become more irked with the quirks that didn't at first annoy you.

How long should I wait before these symptoms start to show?

The more I'm with him, the more exciting our life together seems to be. I have never been in a heated fight with him, in fact I may not have ever been really irritated with him. We seem to always have things to talk about, and when we don't we don't seem to mind just lounging around together for hours doing nothing. Oh, and don't get me started on the sex.

Though recently, I have gotten to saying 'I love you' very often... on occasion I catch myself gravitating toward him so I can get or give back rubs. Someone the other day was making fun of me feeding him, but that was cause it was my cake and he didn't want to get his own slice.

I said the catch phrase to Greed earlier today when we were cooking dinner and he said, "Well I think a lot of people are jealous of us. We have a very good relationship."

Just checking. 

He goes on to tell me that it's obvious what I bring to the table in our relationship. He thinks that I'm smart, I earn more money than him, and I am a responsible woman. Then he laughs and he says what the guys don't see are his contributions, since they all have to do with penis size. Which is only partly true, it has to do with his personality too. He cooked me dinner right after this conversation.

So am I in the honeymoon stages? Maybe so. But maybe my honeymoon stage is forever, and I'm glad if that were the case.

I love you Brian. I'll be there for you for life!

"The only thing wrong with those yank pilots are that they're over sexed, over paid and over there." WWII quote

So while looking up movies (or some similarly pointless shit) on my fiance's hand phone -- he closed a bunch of windows that were open on the background of his phone browser and of course the inevitable flash of a woman's super stuffed kusho hits the screen before it is quickly deleted.

"Porn?" I ask, aghast. "Why are you looking at porn on your cell phone?" To which, I then adamantly insist, "Don't be stupid. You should use your laptop cause the screen is bigger!"

He said he didn't want to get viruses. I guess this is like, safe sex of the internet smut. lol. Maybe I should use my phone too...

Quote of the weekend:
Woman 1: "MONSTROUS BOOB JOB BIMBO!"
Woman 2: "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!"
Woman 1: (After some attempts at breathing since the two of them could not stop laughing) "I'm Sorry S-- I really like your fake boobs. They're so perky. I wish I had them!"
All 6 Men: "..........................."
Me: "... I want to say something. but I don't know what to say..."
Woman 2's husband: "...... this just got really weird for me."

On a side note. I need 4 dollars worth in quarters in order to use the high power washer around the corner of Bitters.

Quote of the day: "HEEEEEY! You're my brother!"

I was just reading Why Is He Still Single?! and here I came upon the term 'Fatal flaw'.

Used by the author to illustrate a good point, I thought the term apt to explain people who need to have something wrong with their other so that they can justify that they are from the same planet as the rest of us imperfect humans. And while I agree, a lot of people have some one thing that separates them from perfection, I find the law of the fatal flaw-- well... flawed.

In the article, Paige recounts the ever enthralling dating life of Carrie, the protagonist of that show Sex and the City. Particularly focusing on 'mr perfect' Aiden. She observes that Aiden is perfect for Carrie-- so perfect in fact, that the Bradshaw chick starts looking for his fatal flaw and ultimately in finding nothing wrong with him, breaks up because their romance is easy. On the contrary, Mr Big; Aiden's foil, is an uncertain mess and Carrie ends up falling for him despite their many difficulties.

I'm recapping what I understood from the datingish article, since I frankly.... hate Sex and the City.

I hate the life lessons they teach the drama hungry women of the world. I hate the characters and the appearance. I hate watching people being stupid in their love lives. And there are many other things.... But this blog isn't about Sex and the City, it's about the Fatal Flaw. And while I applaud the use of the term and the clarity it brings when describing some people in a relationship-- I really don't respect what it means to some people real life. I like the phrase, I hate people who abide it; I have this distaste for people who have to search for something wrong when they are graced with something good.

In the comments, someone replied something along the likes of 'if you find someone perfect then that is their fatal flaw'. I hadn't been very interested in responding until I read that and the other statement about 'The guy wasn't human because he had no flaws. Everyone needs to be able to relate to their significant other.'. And I vehemently disagreed (About relating to the flaws, bit-- not about relating to the significant other).

If you find someone who is perfect, then you fucking keep them.

The chances of you having someone so great land on your lap is one in infinity-- you don't scoff at them cause you can't find the flaw. Maybe their fatal flaw is something that doesn't matter to you, thus you wouldn't see it. I hate the logic of people in relationships that 'every relationship has to be difficult in order to be dynamic'. That's as sensible as saying, 'the only way to enjoy chocolate cake for the rest of your life is to use a different recipe every time.'. Sometimes you just fundamentally love something for being that one thing, no matter how many times you've had it. 

 So, IMO you know what Aiden's real fatal flaw was?: "That easy relationships make for bad TV drama."

Booyah!

So I decided to pledge 48+ dollars to the re-launch of Xanga. Not because I feel particularly, emotional or passionate about the re-launch of Xanga on WordPress. But because I thought about how long Xanga has lasted me and how much they asked of me in the last ten years over my 3 maintained pages-- and I decided that 50 dollars is really nothing much in the scheme of things. 

If it does not re-launch I am not completely distraught. If it does, then I will have membership for one year. After that, I can decide if I want to keep it. For now, Good luck Xanga website. I hope you're going to go the distance.